Sunday, November 8, 2009
The only fact that doesnt change- "Everything changes"...
Not almost everything, but actually Every everything changes...
Though u dont want it to....
In my life the only relations that i kno will last are wid my sis, mum n dad.. Mebbe my friendship wid jagu mite b very long... mebbe even wid nishi n harry... n d most i want is wid hrishi, umesh n nitish.. but a fact i kno, it'll change...
I never ever was nor did i ever want to b emotionally dep on anyone... I am so wid my mom dad n sis... Only if anything affects them, affects my happiness.. Rest all things in d world, whether they exist or not are not my concern...i dont care a damn...
But many times now i end up alone... not lonely, but yes alone... N well it does make me lonely a few times too... I kno this is bound to happen more often in my future but well... i hate it anywhichway...
Frankly i've found some gr8 friends in all these times... N of cose more often than not i've even chosen wrong ppl for company, but never mind that... they never affected me emotionally coz i always had my back-up: "Me"... The best of the best friends to me has been Venus.. in Kota that was.. She was a true friend yaar... always right for me n right there for me....
N now i end up sharing my time with hrishi umesh nitish... Damn..they r the Best! They make u laugh, they make u cry, they dont let u be lonely n they irritate u like hell....
I never ever really shared my thoughts wid ppl... i've always had friends coz they luv telling me everything n i listen to them, sort them out... I luv to keep ppl happy coz thats d only way i can b happy... But wid harry n nishi i learnt to share myself... not only my thoughts but parts of my life... Things quite close to me...
N wid hrishi, umesh, nitish i learnt to share even my feelings, my loneliness, my happiness, u kno..more of me.... there r times wen i want sum1 to listen to me, cheer me up n nitish is always there... there r times wen i want sum1 to guess wat i'm feeling n distract me from watever really affects me n make me smile n umesh is always there... there are times wen i want to tell sum1 the things i shudnt, the things i'd rather not, that affect sum1 which in turn affect me, the things that make me cry n theres hrishi... i never ever thot i'd really share sumthing that makes me vulnerable but it makes me strong... clears my head... n theres no one else i'd share it with...
I've become way too attached... Even emotionally dependant i guess...
I'll hav to work a way out...
coz i kno...
everything comes wid an expiry date... even relationships....
Still i wish....may these friends b for keeps......
Though u dont want it to....
In my life the only relations that i kno will last are wid my sis, mum n dad.. Mebbe my friendship wid jagu mite b very long... mebbe even wid nishi n harry... n d most i want is wid hrishi, umesh n nitish.. but a fact i kno, it'll change...
I never ever was nor did i ever want to b emotionally dep on anyone... I am so wid my mom dad n sis... Only if anything affects them, affects my happiness.. Rest all things in d world, whether they exist or not are not my concern...i dont care a damn...
But many times now i end up alone... not lonely, but yes alone... N well it does make me lonely a few times too... I kno this is bound to happen more often in my future but well... i hate it anywhichway...
Frankly i've found some gr8 friends in all these times... N of cose more often than not i've even chosen wrong ppl for company, but never mind that... they never affected me emotionally coz i always had my back-up: "Me"... The best of the best friends to me has been Venus.. in Kota that was.. She was a true friend yaar... always right for me n right there for me....
N now i end up sharing my time with hrishi umesh nitish... Damn..they r the Best! They make u laugh, they make u cry, they dont let u be lonely n they irritate u like hell....
I never ever really shared my thoughts wid ppl... i've always had friends coz they luv telling me everything n i listen to them, sort them out... I luv to keep ppl happy coz thats d only way i can b happy... But wid harry n nishi i learnt to share myself... not only my thoughts but parts of my life... Things quite close to me...
N wid hrishi, umesh, nitish i learnt to share even my feelings, my loneliness, my happiness, u kno..more of me.... there r times wen i want sum1 to listen to me, cheer me up n nitish is always there... there r times wen i want sum1 to guess wat i'm feeling n distract me from watever really affects me n make me smile n umesh is always there... there are times wen i want to tell sum1 the things i shudnt, the things i'd rather not, that affect sum1 which in turn affect me, the things that make me cry n theres hrishi... i never ever thot i'd really share sumthing that makes me vulnerable but it makes me strong... clears my head... n theres no one else i'd share it with...
I've become way too attached... Even emotionally dependant i guess...
I'll hav to work a way out...
coz i kno...
everything comes wid an expiry date... even relationships....
Still i wish....may these friends b for keeps......
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