Travelling..my passion :) - Pt II

Well rite now while publishing this is going to be my 100th post :) But there a few updates still pending to be published... But i'm still regarding this as my 100th post n celebrating!!!! :):)
The best part is dat its about wat i love most in life :) :) :)

Kashmir-heaven on earth :)
Its really the most most most beautiful part of the planet that u can ever see :)
Well theres the main Kashmir wid Gulmarg, Pahalgam, Srinagar and all and then theres Leh, Ladakh... :*

Kashmir is like royalty...u get such special treatment (by the nature haan, tho even the ppl r wonderful in leh, ladakh, main kashmir is just about ok ok, u do need to b careful). Nature is really glorious out there... Srinagar wid its lakes and gardens is wow :) Staying in d houseboat is lovely :) But the Dal Lake is not really the cleanest n quite populated..not as serene as i'd love but still very pretty...:) Its lovely to sit in the house boat n stare outside...look at the cloud gathering slowly over the mountains, the sun setting in d backdrop, a slight drizzle forming n then cool rains........mmmmmmmm:) It is BEAUtiful:)

.....i'll continue later in detail bout Kashmir, Leh Ladakh :)
........Going to make a pizza rite nw :D



Ok...mesa back :)
Soo....


First up was Pahalgam for us...very very very peaceful n relaxing :) Our hotel ws a bit off from d market..wid a garden overlooking d river...

D sound of flowing water continuously in d backdrop...n we'd often sit there n keep watching d river flow.... it was very calming :) Then the market..we'd go down there by d hired van n roam around n eat at Nathu's Rasoi...hmm...yummm:) we took off for a horse ride once to Aru village n once to Baisaran..
Baisaran was mesmerising..simply hypnotising! d simplicity, d beauty, d untouched nature....wow :) d ride ws crazzy u kno...the slopes were soooo steep bt d horses..damn sure footed..n d horse riders actually walked along so calmly even wid those slopes..it seemed so unreal! at d top it ws freeeeezing!!!! there ws this very small hut where uncle offered us kahwa...yummm:*it really brought me back to life! i ws starting to get a fever actually :P Later i came around to b so sick that at one pt of time i ws hallucinating : | But my dad..always d hero ;) he ws all prepared for d cold n brought me back to normal in a day or 2!
Ok..back to baisaran.. later while coming back down, the horse riders rode wid us...we had quite a good chat..about their childhood in Kashmir..how they learnt to ride wild horses n all! It ws something out of a story book... Later at the hotel we had a talk wid d Kashmiri waiters..he told us hw he used to b tortured coz he had lite coloured eyes..salt on cuts n all :( well anyways...the stay turned out beautiful there :)

Next we went to Gulmarg....another pure beauty! There are miles and miles of lush green hills n grass n peaks topped with snow like icing on a cake... its a treat to watch :)

Our hotel ws sooo very cozy :) Then there was this ride up d Gondola to the peaks...:) Snow n snow n snow!! wow:* we were playing n enjoying n sooo happy u kno:) we went on to try skiing (it ws a joke..not d sport type..just being dragged on skis by d ppl:P:D) n sledging....now that ws an experience!!! Coming down the snow slopes in speed!!! aaaaaaaah!!!!  but then later i ws beggining to feel cold n weak:P still...it was real fun..real!
Then there was this waterfall that we visited...it was HUGE.... coming in from in between two mountains..u can just see the water gushing in..n we were on d bridge n den on dat mountain u kno..sooo close...it ws scary to an extent! really....it ws so powerful...coming down wid all force n sooooo loud..u cudnt hear see or even think about anything else standing there next to it..u can almost see ur life go by.....
And there ws dis smaller waterful nearby our hotel itself....so cute!

wid luvly grass around it n colorful ladybird:D we went ahead n sat in between d waterfall u kno..in d freezing cold on some stones in between! was sooooooo nice n sweet! :)

Last was Srinagar.. d Dal lake n houseboat experience :) the market here ws buzzing :) n we'd splurge on sweets at Nathu's Rasoi here :D Also there are these extremely beautiful gardens out here...really awesome:) but u cud feel u r in kashmir here u kno..wid army ppl standing around everywhere... i really wish for peace in dis heaven.......

And as for Leh Ladakh...its too long a story to fit in here :D
N ya, one more story pending...bout d short trips dat we hav;)
We went to Shirdi on 12, 13th dec btw! :)

Travelling..my passion :) - Pt I

The weather today.....its just soooo distracting! Got exams from coming Monday and all i can think of rite nw is going out on a vacation rite nw :P :D
Wat to do...ders hardly been any sun out today :P all cloudy n cool like in d hills! d sun only peeked out for a few minutes at around 3 or something! Imagine dat! :D
Well i just cant help d fact that m soooo mad about travelling.. Its really the thing i most love in my life.. i just cant imagine myself, my life in any other way.... :)

Wen we were very young we never had dat much luxury amounts to spend on vacations, and well that was d time to spend at home u kno..everyone had time actually :) We'd go to the parks n play wid dad n d long walks wid mom n everything n hav fun together.. And vacations were meant to b wid nana-nani, mammus n masis.... nice :)

Then as we became bit busier at school n all, the vacations meant more for us.. The very first holiday we had was at Mahabaleshwar :) So nice :)
Its not at such a high altitude but some cyclonic winds had gathered all d clouds and it was a pretty awesome time! The journey by bus during the nite time, the early morn stopover at a strawberry farm n tea for mom dad n i guess icecream for me n sis :) N d beautiful beautiful hazy hazy morn....just so dreamlike :) Then our first ever stay at a hotel, the lunches and dinners there.. Some wierd unheard songs being played out faintly in d bkgrnd n the waiters serving sweet dishes n all.. N at those times we'd b making friends werever we went..so we found a grp of kids there too... then the walks on the bazar streets, some shopping and playing games and eating out... Going for horse ride at d lake.. going for long long walks on d first day itself :P :D n of cose clicking pics of monkeys :D:D Fun!

Next was Ooty.. A bigger vacation! Longer journey... By train n then by bus n the toy train.. N all the rains there, that silly lakeside out of reach hotel :P We made one friend there too at d merry-go-round.. Then the toy train at the lake n all d heavy rains..nice:) N the rose garden, botanical garden....faint memories.. I remb d first time we were drinking tea out there :D N we did feel quite cold..sis wearing 2-3 tops of ours n 2-3 dad's shirts n all :P:D  Frankly i dont remb much good things bout that vacation :P:P:D But well it was a vacation and a bigger one and good nevertheless :)
Then came a trip to Kahandala by car i guess.. N later during my 10th lots many such small beautiful trips.. Khandala, Karnala, Ekvira temple, Igatpuri, Traimbakeshwar, Alibag, Silvassa, and very later on Ganpatipule, Shirdi, recently Malshej..... All of these are really lovely :)

Then there was the bigger n more beautiful trip to Himachal Pradesh..WOW! :)
Manali, Shimla, Dalhousie n Dharamsala..... Shimla...very very overpopulated..but the mall roads fun anyways :) Manali is most pretty, very beautiful n a lot of fun :) Dharamsala has only the monastry, otherwise the hotel was yuck :P Dalhousie is a very very pretty place n has d lovely smaller-town-feel :) The train journey to Delhi was very much fun, then d drive to Shimla.. n the roadside Dhabas....mmmm...Yummy :) The mall road was good fun :)

And then Manali... pretty :) cosy hotel..beautiful scenery:)  the roti and raita in d market place..the shopping at tibetan market... sis's bday :D there was dis nice camp by dad's office wale uncle..nice :) then the horse ride..first real and beautiful :) then the snow..first time in life n amazing experience :) it was wow!! skiing was silly :P And paragliding.....OOOOOH!!!! And d "Experience of Forever"- RAFTING :):):):) i cant even begin to describe these...........:) Seriously, Manali was an eye-opener experience for us newbies to travelling n ultimate fun in vacationing for firsttimers :P :)

Then we went on to Dharamsala..n later to Dalhousie..... So so so pretty :) Very comfortable n sweet.. the two things we found there which r present at all other such similar small hill stations- Gandhi Market, Subhash Chowk :P :D But really nice :) the bazar road was so nice..n der ws dis Sharma da Dhaba..lovely :) The experience of having hot bhuttas in cold, wearing sweater in summer :P:D n later giving the bhutta cover to horses...nice really :) The small sweet market place, the cosy streets to walk on forever, the peaceful sunsets, the lazy mornings...easy n nice n sweet n terribly peaceful :)

And the Uttaranchal trip...nice :)

First came Nainital..such a beautiful city by d lake :) Its a lot like Shimla but much much much better..actually Shimla's been terribly commercialised.. Nainital still retains its charm :) We had a lovely lake-view hotel :) We'd take long walks on d mall road along d lake...n then sit and chat besides d lake... Dad wud "recite" some very well known stories of their school syllabus in perfectly "textbookish" Hindi :D:D really..luvly time :) N boating in the lake...n going to Bhimatal, eating curry n drinking lichi juice:) n going up by d cable car, getting pics clicked wearing those pretty lehnga n all costumes (sis mum n dad while me, i preferred Gabbar ;) :D )....

Then there were Ranikhet n Kausani... Both pretty small town n very very homely :) Full of greenery, pretty flowers, small market wid Dhabas, wid mountains visible wid snow peaks far off... really luvly :):) We'd so often sit in the balcony or on the terrace peacefully..really nice :) There was this one place...full of tall grasses n pretty gentle slopes... U wont blieve it..we went about rolling in the grass:D:D:D:D that was soooo awesome...even mum n dad u kno:) laughing like crrrrazy :D Then there was this time that we went to watch the stars... Actually that town is sooo small n secluded that the nite sky was terribly clear..we cud see so many stars u kno...hardly u cud find a sq.cm. without stars....the whole milky way ws visible.... N for d 1st time in life i saw sooooooo many shooting stars... brilliant :)

And Jim Corbett....Its another story u kno! Camping out in the jungle next to river! WOW!!!! :) sitting besides d river for hours n hours, bouncing stones off the surface! going for lovely safari..seeing monkeys most of d time:D crossing shallow rivers, looking at tiger claw marks along the way.. looking at some movement hoping to see a tiger n realising its just a cock:D:D:D:D Mind blowing :)

md wid pppj!

Crazzzzzzy day! :):):)
Beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I happened to b late coz ws cooking up yummy lunch :P Phr auto pakadne ka pagalpn :P:D Phr Cadbury se backbay depot ki as13 ac bus...last seats direct...ekdum school picnic jaise:D:D kch bhi pjs nvs maar maar k hase ja rhe the:P:D bahut pakaya ek doosre ko..ekdum nonsense tha:D:D main, poo b aage the aur peeche jagu, prachi aur poo sh..mast cucumber, apple, bread pakoda khaya.....yummmmmy:) baadme bus khali khali sa hua kafi to aur mast me gaane waane gane lage:P:D:D:D dhamaaaal!!!
Reached backbay almost n were so confused k kha aa gae hain:P asked d conductor n he ws sooooo helpful(was about to return 100 coz bahut aage aa gae the)! phr wahi se utar k massst khali double decker mili..jiske conductors again were very funny:P udhar peeche hi Adarsh Bldg thi ghotale wali n they were like le lo photo:D:D phr humlog upar ja k naach rhe the literally!!!! :P crazzzzzzzzzzzzyyyyyyy!!!!
Then wen d bus started! wow! wat wind!!!! awesome!!!!!! Got down at AirIndia n then wahin md pe baithe the ped ki chav me:D Antakshari chalu hua, poo b jagu naach rhe the! Aur wo flower gire the bahut se, utha utha k maar rhe the:D

Then later time to move on....chalte chalte Naturals.....n Poo Sh k job ki treat:):):) uska visiting card dekha mazza aaya:) N i ate 2 cones-tender coconut n jackfruit..baki log mango2, coffee walnut, peach apricot... then showed them d videos-katrukullai n rahul sharma n dey went crazy over it :D phr photo le k nikle:)
Phr aage chal k jai hind gae n later back to md walk n phr ped k neeche baith k dabba khaya:P:D prachi sandwich, me n poo rice :) den poo sh n jag dint want to walk bt phr bhi sablog sth phr chal chal k gae:) poo sh khush thi, mast gane ga rhi thi:) poo b, jags aage the:) later discussion on arabic culture (prachi's studying in dubai) n then we almost reached:) trees k shade me ja k baith k pani liya, photos liye :)
Chowpatty:):) Had chana zor garam n then gola n lil dahi puri...mast tha:) felt so exhilerated:):) then poo sh had to leave for event n we left for home:) cst se as1 liya n then me n poo b were chatting bout colg n frnz n all:) phr pahuche cadbury, auto liya aur aa gae ghar:):):)
Mazza:):):):):):)

hum jo chalne lage..chalne lage hain ye raaste.....:)

Lazy me :P

Seems m bcoming lazier day by day.. hardly any posts update... life's so hectic na.. wat to do :P
As a prncpl i dont rec all d bad times.. bt this time its been really tough.. m rather tired n m not waiting anymore for anyone and anything.. life does go on n it still can be fun.. Just learn to live on ur own, for ur own self.. overlook things that hurt u, trouble u n u hav no control over.. its easier :) agreed, pain doesnt leave bt then u grow so bored of it one day, so fed up, so tired dat u becum numb n dont feel it anymore.. it wears out.. time heals... of cose wat u feel doesnt ever becum same again..bt u learn to accept things.. u kno sumthings r out of ur hand..leave them as it is.. there maybe a better future around, u can only hope so n dream a bit.. but dont depend on dat dream..dont make dat dream ur life.. And anywhichways, being alone is a lot easier than being lonely... leave it n live..
Watever...
So,
ya...
the good times :)
>> wen all frnz came home :)
>> later we went for lalbaug n ganesh galli :)
>   publicity n fever n all :(
>> girgaum, khetwadi, khotachiwadi, sukhsagar, md, churchgate, malabar, mahalaxmi :D
>> event wid nv n sis :)

luvable weekend :)

Sry :P

Lolz! Been wat? like almost 3 months??????!!!!!!!!!!
Hnah!
Dont kno hw dis happened haan...dont blame me pls :P
Arre let me take a chotu sa flashback..
exams..nishi bachi got jaundice:(:( bt still being strong gav all her pprs:):*
b4 dat pracs n all started just wen sis's xams ended..den exams..so no time for celebration...
plus..mom n sis had to go chitrakoot..but postponed..
so exams were actually a fine time coz sis's xam tension ws over n mom n she dint yet leave..
two most pathetic days of my life 2nd july n 24th may...
just after xams we left for chitrakoot..25th june n i got back 10th-11th something..
nice peaceful calm place..first few days were rather tough.. terribly hot.. no nothing there..just bare minimum water elec n food..n lotsof farms..open spaces... it seemed all beautiful once it got cooler tx to rains.. then there were a few peaceful moments we spent in d balcony.. sitting at d edge of d canal n farms under open skies.. near d small temple.. looking at d bright blue bird n d other one.."saras"..really huge but graceful:):) n once wen it rained heavily.....beautiful:):):) a few fun moments wid mom n sis playing d whole day..ludo, snakes n ladders n cards:) n reading novels...

A hundred secret senses by Amy tan n Damsel in distress by Wodehouse...really nice ones :)
Then came the time wen i finally got back home...i ws quite happy to b back.. d day i got back went to dad's office.. n ya d 24hr train journey..all alone..made bearable by a cute lil baby :):)
Then at home.....perfected khichdi :D n quite a few lunches n dinners out wid dad :) spent quite some time wid frnz :):) n at home :):):) n watching movies..star movies n hbo r literally life savers :D once or twice was it dad had to go out too.. did get lonely a few times.. but otherwise i did find quite some peace being back.....:):*
one pretty good time ws wen we went to siddhivinayak then worli seaface then marine drive n chowpatty :)
we meaning me, nits, ums, nishi, chaipa n chiu :):)

once me n dad went to khandala..dat ws good too :)
n ya of cose..forgot to mention just after xam n b4 ckoot we went to malshej ghat..was LOVELY:):):*
but m terribly missing alibag......i really wish to go there once wid frnz n once wid fly...
arre haan..no more delhi now :D :):):):):):):):)
dads getting everything he wanted now here itself..m really happy now:) n he's quite busy now:D:)
n then colg started soon enuf..but 1st week ws a good bit mass bunk n i really enjoyed all while :D
den sis came for d 1st CAP round..i had gone to pick her up at d airport:) i cooked at home n we stood in line for 2hrs or more:P she updated me wid all d recent happenings of ckoot;) it ws really good to hav her home.......
den she ws about to leave n dad too but i got d skin allergy.....pathetic i tell u..one whole week went wid dat...but it ws all fine after all:)
arre haan...i had almost forgotten dis event..
once ums came to colg n i had to rush off to airport to pick up dad..no one cud giv their time sumhow n him being d super-sensitive bhav khau fellow :P:D u can guess wat happened... now i can laff over it but i tell u it ws a pretty bad time for us back then..
then there ws anvi's bday..fun:) me n nishi gav her d frame:) abhinav had brought a cake..lolz >_< but we had gud fun i tell u :D
n wen evbdy left..me nits n hrishi sat n chatted n chatted n chatted n chatted n went to vashi ..that ws a beautiful day i really cherish:)
then ngha had to leave n d last time she came to colg..n we spent d whole day laffing n laffing n lafing madly.. "al anagha" :D:D:D:D:D:D:D
finally ppl started leaving n only me nits nishi ums chiu n hrishi were left..we went off to vashi.. d usual :D:D
i had a good talk wid ums meanwhile:) nishi went home n came.. we started to leave n i decided to stay back a while..nits came back too.. i hadnt noticed earlier but now that he mentioned i too realised he n ums hadnt talked at all.. i cudnt see it happening yaar..too much... i called up ums n hrishi n asked them to get back.. i tell u..ums dint want to talk bout it..hrishi ws unsure he wud actually come back.. but they did.... brilliant :):) n d look on nits's face wen he saw them coming back....:D n then d gaalis n talk n shaaaaanti :):):):)
mom n sis came back..we had a trip to traimbakeshwar..was fun :) windows open wid our heads hanging out :D:D:D:D:D realll good:)
then there ws dis ns tngl..
n i met jags n poo b yest..:):) reallll good:) i love em both :)
recently k's come over so hrishi's retired :D
n ya..nishi's res! 96 in maths :D n 71% aggre wid jaundice :D:D congrats baby:) luv u :*
n nits cleared everything pending n chiu's finally in TE:)
n of cose..sis's res..RAIT-IT!! its just brilliant :):)
we spent 5 days shopping for her n combed thru all malls in thane, mulund n vashi :D:D
she's got a really smart n sexy boycut wid lil highlights:)
n she's got some good frnz so she's enjoying:)
been just two-three days tho :D:D

lotsof updates na?!

N it rained.. N we played teen patti!

n poor nishi got d viral..
n colg got new lift..
n library got ac..
m having my xams btw..
n dad mite actually takeup delhi offer..
n i wanna eat pakoras..
n get wet in d rain..
n go back to alibag..
n srilaxmi got into sathye's univ for b.ed :)..

hall tkt,class,colg-hrishi nishi nits n h frnz

nishi n ratna bday

sis album, class, vashi-nishi

nishi cousin

ntdd prx

ip prx

Last week n today :):)

              Sis's AIEEE exam this Sunday.. finally khatam hua :D:D Full week we both worked terribly hard for it..mazza aa gaya! finally thoda aaram lag raha h ab :)
              So to take a good break i called sis to colg.. Actually colg me checking n submissions chalu h, n wed se tests.. to ppl were roaming around everywhere n mostly tues colg mass bunk karenge.. plus sunday hi apne stad me match khatam hue hain so bheed kam thi authorities ki.. I was also upto a lot of writing work in d canteen n no lecs really took place.. then went to my class n collected more info.. met anvi, nishi, nits, ums n hrishi all d while sumwhere or d other :D Once done with major portion of my tension-wala-same day submission-kaam i was free to think further.. Called up sis n asked her to come over.. pehle to na na chalu tha then hrishi ne phone le liya mujhse aur bola dee gai checking karane ab tum colg aa jao:D maan gai thank god!
            Came in an hour by car..tab tak i was done wid my work n went n sat in law colg..aci khasi hawa aa rahi thi wahaan yaar..nahi to colg me jo garmi thi ki kya kahun:P hrishi came over then nits too..ums had gone to get his black book printed in vashi n nishi had gone home..anvi was busy wid some work.. later ums came, anvi came n we went to canteen.. wahan hrishi aur nits k dabbe khae.. sis itna comfortable thi na mast me dabba kha rahi thi..mazza aaya.. phr ums got uttapam, wo bhi acha nikla shockingly :D anvi ko bhi zabardasti baithaye rakha..acha laga:):)
            Then planned to g Vashi.. Car me hi sabko thoos thaas k gaye sab sath..it was fun :) went to c1..called nishi over.. thankfully wo bhi aai:):) usko bhi chhed rahe the.. n me n sis were trobling others too..tickle kar kar k:D the way they'd jump in d air..hilarious :D:D:D cam charge karne ccd me diya..lolz! hrishi n sis were playing cricket wid d plug point n threw d poor thing two floors below in a six :D:D we were all troubling nishi :D:D itna hasi mazak na..mast mazza yaar..........
            All my fav ppl together.. sis, nishi, hrishi, nits, ums n anvi.. luv em all :*:* :):):):):)

its not in an order..but still..
Wish 1# ALIBAUG..me,nishi,nits,ums,hrishi,chaipa,chiu n ne1 who wants to join in..PLSPLSPLSPLSGOD
Wish 2# Sis:)
Wish 3# dad's office:)
Wish 4# mom,masis etc
Wish 5# etc etc...

The diff......contd..

frnd: in dono main diff kya hai?

me: bahut bahut bada diff h dear
1:04 AM acha chal us bande ki baat chod
mujhe kch aur bata
maan le tu us se kabhi mili nahi hoti
kch aur hi scene soch
1:05 AM soch zara ki ideal relationship kaisi hoti phr?
ek swt sa ladka h
sabke sath ache se behave karta h
1:06 AM honest h
kisi se jhut nahi bolta tujhse bhi nahi
teri us se dosti hui
he starts liking u
1:07 AM n he tells u dat he luvs u
now lets say he is ur bf
he luvs u
wen u look into his eyes
1:08 AM now dont u imagine him just think
theres some guy
jiski aankhon me tum dekhti ho
to u realise he cant live without u
tujhe zara sa bhi bukhar ho
1:09 AM ya tu jyada hi khaas rahi ho
he just cant see u like that
he'll req u to take some medi
1:10 AM tu thak jae to tujhe force kare ki tu kch kha le
tujhe ek din bhi colg me na dekhe to pareshan ho jae
tujhe call kar k pooche ki kya hua
1:11 AM agar tujhe kabhi bhi thoda bhi rote hue dekh le to ekdum bechain ho jae
tu bahut thaki h din bhar phr us se milne jati h
phr kisi baat pe to hasti h
1:12 AM ye dekh k finally wo releived ho jae
tujhe hazaar lakh baar i love u bole
aur tujhe us se bhi jyada ye bole ki i need u
dont ever leave me
tu jo kahe wo har baat maane

frnd: mujhe to wo hi yaad aa raha h :(
me: wo aisa h?
abhi bhi?
1:14 AM frnd: hmm
me: pehle ki baatein yaad mat kar
present soch k bol
aaj bhi agar tum dono sath ho to wo kya ye kahe ga ki pls mujhe kabhi akela mat chodna?
1:15 AM frnd: pata nahi...
me: wo nahi bolega
y dont u realise he's said he doesnt need u nemore
1:16 AM he said it to u n he is happy with his decision
how can u still love a guy who doesnt love u nemore?
 u r only refusing to accept the truth
1:17 AM u r denying d fact that he doesnt love u nemore
that wil not help u
it'll make ur life worse
frnd: pata nahi abhi bhi lagta hai wo wapas a jaega

agar mai wait karu to
1:20 AM par agar main nahi ruki to hum nahi milenge
abhi tak to waiit hi kar rahi thi
par ab mera dimag kharab hota ja raha hai...
1:21 AM maine last maonts lagbhag sari classes bunk ki
kuch nahi padha hai
me: teri relationship kabhi bhi tere liye achi nahi thi
frnd: next week se exams hai
me: na jab tu uske sath thi na jab usne tujhe chod diya h
1:22 AM uske sath thi to tujhe bahut nuksaan hua h wich u dont realise rite now
somewhere u do kno about it
but u refuse to acknowledge it
1:23 AM u hav lost all self respect all self value
frnd: hmm
me: just because of one guy u hardly hav any good friends around u
frnd: sach mai koi self respect nahi raha hai
me: u even fought with ur family for d guy whos ready to leave u
1:24 AM n he is not leaving u for his family dear
dont b under d wrong impression
its not at all true that he is a noble guy who wants his mum to b happy n thats y he is leaving u
1:25 AM he isnt all so nicey nicey d way u like to think
u think u kno him well coz u want to kno him well
u think he luvs u coz u want him to luv u
1:26 AM u think u luv him coz u want to luv a gr8 guy that u assume him to be who luvs u wich again is ur assumption
none of it is true
1:27 AM a relationship is good for u only if it hepls u to kno urself better to enhance ur life
not to destroy everything existing around u to create an illusion
1:28 AM to create a dream that u want to beleive is true
frnd: mai har bar milne par us k samne roti hu...bolti hu mat jao....wo man jata hai fir thik thak hi baat karta hai...fir jab wapas jana hota hai to bolta hai ki dost hi hai...jaise maine use bandh rakha hai..maine kabhi bhi nahi roka use...use jo karna hai wo karta hi hai
1:29 AM me: if he wud hav truely luved u na
ye khayal uske mann me bhi nahi aay hota ki tum sirf friends rahoge
1:30 AM kabhi nahi
tujhe bolne ki bhi zaroorat nahi hoti teri khwaish aur wo pehle hi poori kar deta
he does not love u
he never loved u
frnd: haan shayad...mai ktna gidgidai hu us k samne

1:34 AM us k bad bhi wo bolta raha ki hum dost hai
me: u kno wat that means na?
frnd: haa
me: wat?
1:35 AM frnd: ki use ab nahi rahna hai mere satth
me: hmm
y do u still want to b with him?
1:36 AM all that he has done to u is destroy u..
maybe he's given u a few moments of life u'll never forget
but at wat cost ?
at d cost of ur self respect ur frnds ur family?
1:37 AM n just a few moments..
not even a lifetime of love
do u still want to b with him?
1:38 AM frnd: nahi
mujhe bhot kuch karna hai...
1:39 AM us k liye maine khud ko pura chang kar diya
1:40 AM lagne laga tha...main sakshi nahi rahi
sach main us ki khushi k liye main khud ko
me: now do u realise u were actually not happy with him?
frnd: chang karti gai
1:41 AM me: jabki he was never satisfied n wanted more all d time..
frnd: main bas us ko khush dekh k khush ho rahi thi..
1:42 AM me: u can now actually see how much damage he has done to u?
frnd: haan
pata nahi chal raha mere ander gussa hai ya dar hai

me: u shud always b able to luv urself as much as ur partner
only then it is good for u
2:14 AM nahi to its better to b single n in luv wid urself
hav a few good frnds
n luv ur family
coz they'll remain true to u
2:15 AM n frankly if u realise that they r not good for u
better b independant
2:16 AM if that helps ur mental status
frnd: k....thanks yaar itna samjhane k liye...
bhot sahi lag raha hai
me: :)
tu hai re smart ladki
frnd: :)
me: tu khud ko bahut underestimate karti h
2:44 AM teri value tu janti nahi h
khud ko respect kar mazze maar khush reh
khud hi sab acha hoga..
frnd: wahh yar khud ki badai sun na kitna acha lagta hai..... :P :) :)
haan
2:45 AM abse sab khud k liye
me: hmm
better :)
jab kabhi ye baat bhul jae mujhse baat karna
2:46 AM main yaad dila dungi ki tu tere liye kitni zaroori h;)

The difference in being in love and wanting to be in love...

Was chatting wid one of my close and dear friends yest.. Known her since like 3 yrs.. She's simple, sweet n quite innocent.. N thought that she was in love though she was not and was just wishing she was in love.. there's a vast difference between the two.. Movies affect our sense of daily life to such an extent and to add salt to our injuries we hav d terrible peer pressure asking us to fall in love as soon as possible if we wish to see a rosy world.. Well its so not true.. u can very well see a rosy world even when u r single.. If u love urself truly n luv every aspect of ur life, u will b living in a dream world n dats d rosy world everyone wants to believe that it brings happiness..whereas the case is just ulta..happiness brings in d rosiness ;)
Back to my friend.. Well she was involved wid dis guy..i frankly hated d fellow for lotsa a reasons n i bet he was a coward n useless fellow..just going around d world for tp wid no depth whtsoever.. n they broke off recently..n she dearly wanted him back..
here it goes...
frnd: are pata nahi....
ab usse lagta hai ki humara koi futur
nahi hai
11:10 PM age jaakar hume problem hogi...mai us k ghar main adjust nahi kar paungi...
us ki mummy nahi manenge
to bol raha tha hume abhi hi alag ho jana chahiye
11:11 PM nahi to baad main alag hone main bhot problem hogi
me: aur tujhe kya lagta h?
frnd: mujhe to lagta tha hum mana lenge...jab itna kuch kiya hai...to ghar walo ko bhi mana hi lenge
par kab wo mere sath rahna hi nahi chahta
to mai kyo use force karu ki mere sath rahe
11:13 PM me: hmm
u still love him?
frnd: hmm
bhot problem ho rahi hai
11:14 PM par try kar rahi hu thik rahu
me: hmm
scene h yaar
agar wo support nahi kar raha then to
theres no point
frnd: hmm..wahi...maine bhot din tak wait kiya ki shayd wo mind chang kar le
11:16 PM par wo humesha bolta rahta hai ki hum dost ban k hi rahte hai
me: to ab tak bina soche samjhe pyar aa raha tha?
kya mahaan h
wat do u really want? dil se?
frnd: mujhe us k sath rahna hai
mai nahi bhul sakti
11:19 PM me: n wat do u want practically from life?
11:20 PM frnd: padhna hai...meri family k liye kuch karna hai
me: tujhe sabse jyada khushi kab hoti h?
uske sath ya family k sath?
11:21 PM tu apne baare me kabhi sochti h ya bas baki sabke baare me hi abhi bhi??
11:22 PM frnd: khud k bare mai itna nahi sochti
sochna chahiye
me: acha tu ye bata
11:28 PM will u b able to completely change ur way of living just for being with him?
bahut vast diff aaega
life badal jaegi
u may not even b able to support ur own family maybe
11:29 PM frnd: puri tarike se to khud ko chang nahi kar sakti
11:30 PM me: do u want to go to a house where u r not accepted as u r?
frnd: nahi
me:  think for urself
tu thoda bhi change karegi khud ko aur tera bf hi tujhe support nahi karna chahta h to?
11:31 PM frnd: hmm
me: do u really luv him dat much?
n does he luv u back as much?
11:32 PM frnd: dekh maine yahan aakar khud ko bhot chang kiya...
or us k liye maine ladai bhi ki
11:33 PM shayad nahi
mai bas sab kuch sahi rahe us k liye us ki baat manti chali gai....n khud ko bhul gsi
wo to kabhi chang nahi hua
 
me: y did u luv him at first?
11:35 PM frnd: meri care karta hai
care to karta hai..
11:36 PM par mai shayad us se bhot expect karti hu
me: pagal h kya?
tu agar apne bf se kch expect nahi karegi to kis se karegi?
11:37 PM its normal to expect things from sum1 who luvs u coz if they do they will do everything to meet ur expectations
frnd: hmmm
mai or nahi roungi
:)
me: main sach bol rahi hu
tu practically soch
maan le apne ghar se jhagad k shadi bhi kar li
11:44 PM uski mom ko ye convince kar k ki tu jitna ho sakta h adjust kar legi
aur phr sath rehte rehte wo tujhme faults hi dhoondhti rahi to
aur frankly i dont think at those times dis guy will support u
somehow mujhe lagta h wo apni mom ka hi side lega
11:45 PM frnd: hmm..
me: he does not hav d courage to face d future
how can u still love him?
see anyone can care for u
ANYONE
11:46 PM dat does not mean they love u
n dear no one will love u if u dont luv urself
frnd: hmmm
11:47 PM wo pata hai.... break up hone k baad... 1 ladki k liye try bhi kiya...
flirt karta tha un k sath...
wo di ko samajh a gaya
me: i mean y d heck do u think of him?
he's such a loser
frnd: n wo us se baat karna band kar di
11:49 PM me: tu mere aas paas hoti na to zor ka thappad khati
he's moved on
dont u realise?
frnd: pata hai mujhe
1:50 PM me: n u r thinking of sacrificing ur family's happiness n ur own lifestyle for him?
y?
u cant b so madly in luv wid him.
frnd: or ab mai bhi try kar rahi hu....par bhot mushkil ho rahi hai
11:51 PM me: u need not flirt around or try for any guy ok..
frnd: hmmm
me: first get urself more confident
more happy
frankly agar koi ladka hota jo sach me tujhe utna pyar karta h jitna tu use karti h
wo aise behave karta
wo tujhe apni mom se introduce karwata
bolta ki tujhe pyar karta h but aage ki tabhi sochega agar uski mom haan karegi
12:29 AM aur phr mom ko aur tujhe aapas me comfortable karne ki koshish karta
thoda tujhe adjust karna hota thoda uski mom ko
but wo dono ko agar pyar karta to dono ko support karta
12:30 AM tujhe aise chod k itna aaram se he wudnt hav moved on if he really loved u
12:31 AM frnd: hmm
me: aisa to nahi h ki tu uski mom ko ghar se nikal dene wali thi
12:32 AM ya phr tu adjust karne se completely refuse kar rahi h
na hi usne apni mom se direct baat kar k frankly apni taraf se kch bhi mehnat ki h kch bhi try kiya h
it was not a hopeless situation but he is acting hopelessly
12:33 AM dat shows that he doesnt really want u
doesnt need
u
frnd: hmm...
me: if he can live without u i dont think he loves u
n to top it he flirts wid sum1 else
wow!
brilliant
12:34 AM it shows he doesnt even care to be with u
frnd: breakup hone k baad wo us k frinds k sath fest chala gaya....wahan bhot masti ki n mujhe aakar bola ki aisi masti usne...12th k baad ki hai
itna gussa aya tha mujhe
mai yahan pareshan hu itni n wo aise masti kar raha hai
12:36 AM break up k liye usne mujhe itna ghatiya reason diya tha ki us ki mummy ki collegue ne hum dono ko sath mai dekha tha bazar mai...
n ab us ki mummy pareshan ho rahi hai...
12:37 AM mujhe yaha reason zara bhi convincing nahi laga
 
me: hmm..
12:52 AM u kno one thing dear
12:54 AM u urslef hav known dat this relationship is not good for u
isnt it?
frnd: hmm
me: but u still dint want to beleive it..
rite?
frnd: hmm
12:55 AM me: i'll tell u a fact
u dont love him
u dont love him at all
its just that u love being in a relationship
that is having a guy who u think cares for u
u want someone to actually love u
12:56 AM we all do
every girl wants a gr8 husband yaar
dats obv
we all want a luv marriage
coz we believe we hav chosen d person who loves us
we love anyone we think who loves us
main ek baat 101% surely keh sakti hu ki wo tujhe pyar nahi karta
1:03 AM nor do u love him
u want to love him
n u want to beleive he loves u
 
to b contd...

the only reason i'm taking efforts to put this up is to tell u d diff between being in luv n wanting to b in luv...dont maistake one for d other coz it'll really harm u..pls..

More of something something ;)

Friendship is just so satisfying, so fulfilling..
Sharing just about any damn thing u feel like.. any any any thing..
It really is true wen ppl say that sharing ur joy doubles it n ur worries lessens it..
Its just effortless, with no false pretense, no needs to justify or explain without being understood.. being on d same level n seeing things in a similar manner.. soothing frayed nerves, cooling down anger, distracting from frustrations... a true friend knows d worst of u n can bring u back to ur best just being ur friend.. no hi expectations but taken for granted.. u kno u can bank on them.. they'll b there anytime u need them... just anytime....
Spending time with a true friend is fun..no other thoughts need to exist.. chatting nonstop nonsense is as easy as sharing comfortable silences :)

Love is such a deep feeling, a deep thought.. So many emotions are attached with it.. Not all are positive obviously but all r beautiful..
Happiness, companionship, trust, faith, hope, tears, anticipation, insecurity, jealousy, expectations, attraction, fun, play, wait, patience, comfort, peace....
Its really funny d way u can connect with some ppl.. simple, plain n easy.. Nothing is fake.. u can b honest, true n not worry bout d reaction or bout being judged or getting unasked advice, just a patient ear.. U can enjoy sharing ur feelings endlessly n not feel guilty wenever u say anything no one was supposed to hear u say..complain bout things n feel better just complaining coz u kno u cant change evrything.. not necessarily speaking out everything, just an expression n d person wil kno wat u mean.. U kno someone is waiting to hear just about anything u hav to say..any-damn-nonsense-thing u please.. N equally take part in joining into the nonsense n enjoying it! Someone worried bout any little discomfort u hav, anything to make u smile.. go to any length just to get a glance at u, just to hear u whispher once.. Enjoying each and every second of ur presence n thanking God just for ur existance.. Its a feeling that can make u feel all alone in a crowd or having company even with noone around :)

Something something....

Long time since i put up a real post.. No, m not updating rite now bout alllll the recent events.. which r too many to count neways! :P Just writing nething i feel like..not done this since soooo long..

At one point of time i thought its enough that someone loves you to have them in your life.. Well now i kno thats completely baseless.. unless u luv d person u wil not care whether or not dat person loves u.. Wat really matters in life is wat u feel, not wat others feel..

Always do wat ur heart says, not caring bout wat ne1 else has to say bout it.. Ur own thoughts, views about urself, ur life wil make u decide wat is wrong n rite for urself.. Be Selfish.. Only u kno wat wil make u happy, do it.. Only u kno who u r, wat u r, or ur good n bad qualities.. Anyone else can love u if and only if u love urself.. U cannot keep changing ur views about urself, about nething in fact, based on wat ppl around u say.. U just cannot judge urself based on wat others hav to say about u, wat others think about u.. They r all insecure n they'll try to make u insecure.. Most of d ppl cannot handle others happiness well.. Ppl r easily jealous of things they see n find so appealing that they want it for themselves.. they'll hence not let u hav it too if they cant.. Such things include ur personality.. Dont u dare change a thing about urself which u like..
But do change things u dont like.. Not feeling happy, satisfied is linked do some desire for change, do bring about that change u always wanted.. Dont b afraid to change just because u r not sure of ppl's reactions to it.. With no changes, progress stops..
Just do wat u wish n enjoy it.. If it turns out not so good, be ready to change again.. Experimenting, trying out different things is d essence of life.. Dont forget there r no rules.. Life isnt a game to play.. Its just a fun thing which will go on no matter u r happy or not.. Time will pass without asking ur permission.. Its ur choice wat u make out of it.. U decide how many precious moments u want to hav.. If u wish u can make each second count.. Happiness isnt a feeling that comes n goes by its own accord.. Its a state of mind that can b changed at ur own will.. Never stop enjoying..
But being selfish doesnt mean going out there n hurting ppl.. i'm dead sure that doesnt make u happy.. One of d most common thing that makes ppl happy is making others happy.. But they often forget that they r trying to make others happy just because it makes them happy n not to please everyone around or to gain their approval.. No one here has d capability to judge u.. But that doesnt mean that they dont feel for u or with u.. Making others happy is not such a difficult task.. A simple smile can also do wonders..
Be selfish but dont b a miser.. Give others as much happiness as u can without hurting urself or losing out on urself.. Only if u think for urself first can u think for others..
Its really fun to live life in such a way.. where u kno dat u r happy n dat u hav d power to make others happy too.. This thought in itself can giv u d energy to go about the day doing everything u wanted..

We r born with certain relations, thats our family.. n on our path we make a lot many more relations, our friends.. This doesnt mean ur family has been forced upon u.. its up to u b happy wid them or b miserable.. the way u treat others, they'll treat u too.. giv luv n u'll get back luv.. U r an individual, capable of lots of emotions, feelings, having lots of power over everything around u.. Often u'll find urself giving out advice to ppl who r meant to advise u like ur parents.. U'll some or d other time in ur life parent ur parents.. in every relation role reversal does take place evry now n then.. In a marriage not always the husband will prove to b rock steady nor will always d wife think from her heart.. just like the guy can cook n d lady rake in d money, they can reverse their roles emotionally too.. Say yes to any role u r offered n hav fun while at it.. u never kno wen its time to change n b d one responsible instead of being d kid who has all liberties to play all the while as they wish.. N it comes naturally, u wudnt even kno or wud hav to put in special efforts for any of it..
Just observe ur own life, others around u n see it happen every minute, every second around u..

Nit's sis's shaadi..

Reached noon, off to hotel wid chu, pooja, prachi, ngha.. den came hrishi, ums, pdy, mdy.. later also prachi vinay n warada.. had fun wid lunch.. n best was joote ki chori ;) n ya..ums 48x zoom cam :D

Way tooo many things been happening.. dheere dheere flashback karte hain....
aaj : lecs wernt supposed to happen but happened aur pracs bhi jaldi jaldi subah khatam kiya.. aakarshan was bout to happen but then it seems princi ne permission nahi diya...
Went for a movie...KARTHIK CALLING KARTHIK :):):)
aai to badhiyaan khichai ki sabne as expected :D Had a very very good time today :):)
Friday had been to matheran wid 12 girls of my class! wo ek aur dhamaal... details later :)
N most imp n best news ...thurs sis came home :):)

Angels for me sent by God...Mom, Dad, Ratna, Umesh, Nitish, Hrishi, Nishi....:)

hrishi bday rslts robo

Ye na poocho kya kya hua...ye poocho kya nahi hua!

Make yest d best day of my life n d bestest nite too ;) :D
very very very eventful yaar... many downs too..but very high ups!
itni sari tkts book krne k baad phr se sab cancel kr k doosra book krna hua.. kch final hua phr pata chala maybe dat wont b poss.. but i swear i dint want nething else coz it meant sidelining sis ki khushi.. but i dunno wat wud happen.. finally mum's gone for her now.. n kota-hrdwr-del plans hav shifted by a weekend means my bday dad mom wil b home.. n even robo event postpone hua to lets see.. nxt week class n all bhi start ho jaega.. plus 2 more bdays in line.. its a happening n eventFULL week!
N d concert n outing were rock solid.. went around 2.15 bhaag bhaag k but late..around 4..den to cc..colg.. concert was supposed to start by 6-7 but dint till 8-8.30.. till then we waited mini stadium me..chatting tping..nishi came finally..no1 else but it ws gud ;) we chatted chatted chatted after a long time dil bhar k! phr mast ground me round liya-2 n then 3rd round....m really hpy bout it all :* ..highest pt! Went out to rangoli later..n then home :)

Jags jaan ka bday n etc etc updates..

2nd feb: a month!

N my sweet sweet jagu's bday!!! :)
frame to baba vacn me hi bana k tayar rakha tha to jab aisa sun ne me aya ki it shudnt come along to i was :O bt since tayar tha we went over neways.. me n pooji late at 9.30! whole day ppl had been calling her up n asking ki meenx aai kya?! finally itna late jags thot ki hum nahi aaenge.. n wen we went..she ws sooooooo surprised! n hpy n shocked! frame ka size dekh k chilla rhi thi :D:D Fast tha uska to cake khilaya nahi bas chehre pe lagaya! :D aur baatein n all ki aur photo kheeche..dhamaal kiya! best was ki she loved it n became soooo emotional! aankhein bhar aai thi uski :) :*


N i got my first bday gift 1st ko..naveen mobile! Nokia 5233..tuchscreen.. sadly mera doosra cell mum k liye saree shopping gai thi tabhi switch off hua aur phr on hi nahi hua..lost all contacts n all..but got it repaired.. this new one is just awesome..everything i wanted is there..gr8 cam, music player, memory internal n external upto 16gb, bluetooth, gr8 cost plus tuchscrn n latest stuff! M really happy wid it!!!! :):)


robo wshop weekend..rish going chandigarh for granp's aniv..hrish bday med can3..ng ns cp reacn..
nt tuch 13 Xlv..

rxns.. 1 h ngry bt undrstndbl.. 2 gng khchai.. 3 h hpy +news.. 4 nv bst.. 5 ns hpy.. 6 ng cp doubt.. trt..chat a lot med can3.. 7 ns upset.. trt..chat a lot conc.. w8 for more!

Back to colg finally...attended 2 days..2 big n busy days... took admsn in 2 classes yest... chatted a lot wid anvi on monday.. told nishi today... all those who mattered i've told {its 3 btw ;)} met every1 in can3 today... phr se khichai as usual.. matheran.. spent gud time wid anvi today n nishi too later... d n r csi jhol n den later wil do sumfink there, lets c.. gnsms.. 1st day itself 3lects, 1prx, 1asg... aaj kiya asg but wo lect hi cancel hua.. aaj to max free lects no prx tha... been bking tkts 4 3days :P jags ka pic ready h i heard.. m hpy... met sri n mith ftr bout a yr aprox on 26.. was ru aniv... mith n sri told com... gaurav, denish me treat... poo, jags k ghr gaye.. pics kheeche ;) its going gr8... theres sumthing bout this month!

Got a BEAUTIFUL life......sachi :)
Met my gang yest...kya khichai ki yaar sabne :P
n met hry today...aur dhulai ki uski to :D:D
M really happy yaar :)

Thank God for this day...gr8! I've got wat i prayed for today :):):):):):):*:):):):):):):):):):):)
Must b d 2nd or 3rd bestest day ;)

Best day of my life :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):*:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)

Back.

Kota.... a biiig part of my life.....
This trip reminded me of each n every moment, each n every person, just about everything... aur to aur its really made me grow fonder of few ppl....
Had lots of dhamaal waise to.. even tho things were not all good...bahut ups n downs hai yaar... in fact at a pt i felt like asking y do v liv..wat for... bt then there r so many moments worth living...just keep waiting for them... hmm... so... ya, we were having fun...
My whole family for d 1st time in sis' stay was there together.. we roamed around d whole place doing a lot of masti... sab markets ghoome.. patang kharid k udane ki koshish ki but nahi ude to ppr planes bana k uda rhe the :D garden wagera gae ghoomne...movies dekhi...bahut kch khaya...chaat n all n mithaiyon pe attack kiya! Do-teen din to dhamaal the... i remb d 1st day sis k liye me mom n dad waiting on d stn Dakaniya Talav..dhamaal tha yaar... i wasnt at peace b4..bt dat time calmed me... den dad mom left n me n sis shifted to hostel... utne me sis ka id ka jhol! haah! aur hum dono saath me khaate the..mazza tha yaar...i luv my sis n my fly wen we r together, happy n having fun...
N i luved d journey whil coming back from there...akele aai thi but mazza aaya...
Aane k baad to hosp k chakkar kaate n apart from dat contacted a lot of my frenz... dekho..kch din h aur abhi colg ko... masti bhi karni h kch kaam bhi h... kafi tension abhi bhi h... kafi saara pyar aur masti bhi...
Dekhte hain..aage kya kya hota h... ek baat h.. not to xpect nething from life or ppl..then u wont face disapntmnt... n liv every moment... widout mch thinking... just liv....
M waiting for tom...i hope it makes me happy :)

Done wid xams finally...n off to kota today...
Going to colg to meet up mah gang n ya buying my buks on d way for d nxt sem[:D].. aur kal bhi xam k baad frenz k saath masti mari thi ;)
N wen i get back....
To-do list!
Learn driving..
Make mum comp-savy..
Get those 2-3 frames made up..
N ya..find about classes for next sem :P :D:D
Welcome to Engg...exam ends n u wait for d next sem!
I actually luv it..it keeps u busy... mind off nonsense n drowned in work to d extent of numbness-saving grace.. spcly wen so much keeps happening to pull u down emotionally...
N thats y i prefer lite hearted stuff...comedy movies, books like hry potter n all fiction, peppy novels n songs n ya..ppl too..simple, lite hearted who make me hpy...where i can get some rest from d 24x7 thots dat keep running in my head.. Thnk God for friends.. tho u dont go out n tell all to them, they make u feel better just by being around....